We can only escape so far. We can only be so free. There is a point where we can no longer be free-er. Most times our own attitudes and fears are trapping ourselves. The environment most of us live in contributes to that as well.
I haven’t been feeling great these few days as I have taken 2 weeks off work and I know the team isn’t coping too well with other people being off sick and stuff. Imagine this, away on annual leave, but not getting peace along with it knowing you are contributing to part of the problem (not really, it’s the problem with the system i think). I think it is important to learn that live goes on with or without you. You are never the centre of the universe you thought you are. On the journey I realise there are many things other side of work that is worth valuing and spending time on (family, friends). On the other hand, the act of going to work gives me structure in daily life and new experiences.
A needless anxiety I shouldn’t be suffering. I need hasten my plan to build more of the plants to fuel this freedom.
How often do you have to get out there a quick monumental decision that changes relations. To be brutally honest or tell a white lie? To break up or make up?
Humans enjoy their comfort zones. They build set out bricks and fill up the cement, erect walls to build their own comfort zones, shielding themselves from the ‘outside world’. And when some sesmic event dawns upon them, it tears down the walls and forces them to face the cold hard truth. No man is an island.
My wall came down when I had to decide whether ‘To Fly or Not’ to see my grandpa upon hearing his passing. His last journey with us and I hesitated. Foolish Foolish me. My wall was ten floors high and I have been snuggling in it for the past few weeks. Everyone else was moving quickly, booking flights, settling leave, and I was thinking maybe I could get away with not going, paralysed by fear of settling leave, fear of not completing some leftover tasks, of being frowned upon.
The fear and anxiety is a very typical symptom of modern society. Just see the number of people who turn up to their GPs requiring anxiolytics, antidepressants. There’s always a feeling that someone else owns us. Your boss, your job, clients, the government, your relationship. Sometimes, it is just too much for a person to handle, or sometimes you are just oblivious to it.
Freedom comes from never having to answer to anyone else but yourself. Even then, you are trapped within yourself unfortunate. True freedom may perhaps bring chaos and unruliness rather than order in this world. And Financial freedom opens will open alot more doors to you, giving you the option of saying ‘No’. When you have a choice between working and spending time with a sick relative, you will less of a dilemma.